HOTTIE ON THE TREADMILL

A priceless video none will ever get tired watching.

Thanks Pats.

N didnt I tell you, he is just so irresistably adorable !!!!

BETRAYED......

why is this happening?
why is this so?
darkness in the flash of lightning,
Then friend; now foe.

Falling from the heights of lies,
Into the depths of filthy truth,
Immense agony it is,
As spears of past penetrate my soul,
Inch by Inch.

When I laughed, you laughed,
When I cried, you still laughed,
Leaving me confused, dismayed and in denial,
Shan't I call it betrayal?

I should have known,
I should have seen it coming,
But, why couldn't I ?

I held you tight,
Too tight, for too long,
Now I know,
Its a f****** big mistake !

if only you stopped to ponder,
How much it hurts,
To be shunned; betrayed.

DEPRESSED

I have depression, I admit,
Admit that I have been depressed,
Thinking how much I wish I could be happy,
Thinking how much I want in life,
Thinking how much you can miss someone you love,
When I look back,
I acn see how much this depression has been in my life,
I need this to be fake,
Yet again, its true that I have this depression,
That makes me sad inside, smile outside,
How it makes me feel,
How it makes me think of cutting and suicide,

But we all human,
We all have something to overcome,
i want to overcome this depression,
Once and for all,
I am fighting hard,
But, it seems so difficult,
Can't live with it nor without it,
Gotta admit that it had made me
Who I am today.Depression.I

JUST A THIRD PERSON

Wow, Not bad.

After four bloody long years, You've finally made me realise that

I'm just a third person.

I was being stupid enough to share all my stories with you,

Stupid enough to have wasted all my life pouring out my feelings to you,

Thinking that you would shoulder me thorugh all that,

Thinking that you would always be there for me,

Thinking that you would trust me just the same,

But, you just proved it,

I'm just a third person.

I mean, it is my fault,

To have emotionally attached myself to you,

to have had the images of perfect friendship with you,

At the end of the day, even you proved yourself to be so selfish,

And why would this even bother you,

You ahve your life, you're at the smart end,

Im the brainless sicko who still believes in all this crap,

I just don't mean anything to you, do I??

Oh yea, I forgot,

I'm just a third person.

If only you had trusted me,

If only,

oh snap, i'm going to start emoing all over again.

No way!

Don't worry,

You are not the one who drew the border line,

its always been there,

You knew it all along,

I was the blind one who never saw it between us,

Anyways, thanks for making me notice its existence.

What's the point of working so hard ,

when its all goind to end in self-deception?

I should have never had any expectations,

Should have never thought that I mean anything to you,

After all,

I'm just a third person.

You need not say it,

I know U cant,

But now I know,

That Im just a third person.

FINALLY

Wow, guess what, this is the first time i'm ever blogging and it feels just great !!!
And I have to admit that I am getting lost every single time !!!lolz.
So hey, yesterday was the last day of school for year '08 and it was just terrific and sucking at the same time...

Just glad that I'm finally back in pace with my bestie and I've finally got back my senses in differentiating between my true friends and some backstabbing bitches. Gone are the days when I used to believe all thos elamenting and mere scoffing she used to do followed by her croc tears. I just ain't gonna take it anymore. Damn You and Your fakeness ...

Getting back to what happened yesterday, all the 4 Cekalians were whacking out and we completely turned da whole JIGZZ upside down !!! All the dancing, and posing and worst of all, havin MUCC there just made the day a whole lot fun... Thanks a lot people. I'm gonna miss yall a lot ( yeah ryte, still gotta see your faces the next whole week for chemistry classes and the Malacca trip) GOsh !!! hahhahahah